The time god
In a nightmare where a pest kept chasing amd trhing to do somethinf bad
I lucid dreamed and i started to move faster than time to escape the pest the demon
And it wasnt enough to stop him
So i moved so fast that i wqs not only ahead of him but i went past time
And reality itself
And then the dream turned into black panther meets the flash
Where sterling k brown was lile my father for parts of it
It was like a movie as if that had been playkng the whole time but it hadnt it was like simultaneous but my brain just understood it
And now i was going faster than time
Trying to change it
And also i was the father
Teaching my son michael b jordan
Why he couldnt change time
And the dangers of messing with time
At one point i called it the tutorial
I was explaining it to him
Amd said that i didnt have time to give him the tutorial before the date
It was prom
And we were going to be late to pick up his date
And my son was forcing me to show him how messing with time was dangerous
So i wqs showing him
How there were simultaneous realities
Where in a i did this in reality b just below it i dod thiand in reality c i did that
I guess its like shroedingers cat
And the time god exists beyond time
It is the observer
The time god was the father
Who had done it so many times and lived thousands and millions of eons of time
Trying to stop the demon
Trying to also simultaneously be the time god
Each time he tries to stop the demon
He lives that lifetime of reality
Making the choice a
Visualizing the scenario
But because he is becoming the time god
He also lives time b and time c
And all options into infinity
Until he realizes the futility of changing time and becomes the time god
That changing reality is also futile because he must become the observer
The choice was the thing he did.
it was in that moment
By stepping outside of time
He made the reality not possible
He couldnt beat the demon
And in this dream where i was myself but also all the characters and the origial people in my dream,
I was on the date for prom and stopping the demon and lecturing my son and listening to my dad
Imand the oserver outside of time watching reality unfold
Moving faster than time
And i could see the hyper dimensionality of it
That the other realities dont actually exist
But also do at the same time
Shroedingers dead cats
And its like all these blurry flashes shot in hyper lapse
The reality is the choice where one stops seeing the future and one loves in that moment not knowing the outcomes
Not being the god for a while but being the son.
And then stepping out is seeing the universe in phase
Being an artist is having something to say
Being the son in the moment
Being god the father is not making the choice but rmeoving one self
And not having peespective
Losing ones identity for objectiveness
In thw dream i started to see all these houses sharing a pool in the middle of their yard
Like friends who loved together and bought the neighborhood and shared rhe pool
And i started to become the observer
And then i was the son syanding on the steps taking the prom photo
And then i was moving through time faster than time trying to stop the demon
And then realizing the demon was me
And the knowledge of this hyper reality started to wake me up and then i had to rewind the dream to remember in my long term memeory
But i wanted to hold onto tbis thought.
Seeing they hypersphere from the objective observer position
The 4 hyperlapses
How do they exist simultaneously
And how does one make a choice or predict which one is which and become the son again the living cat
Its the intersection
Where the possibikities merge
And time moves forwards snd backwards
At the same time
Thats the moment with the most gravity
Where the lanes merge
Its the fusion point
That moves along
It is the playhrad of the timeline
The playhead is the sonand the editor is the father
The son is the father
Who hasnt lived all fhe timelines yet
He doesnt have the wisdom of all the choices and all the lifetimes
Ans thats soer kf what gravity is
Just this overlapping moving playhead loint of intersection and everything causes hyper possibilities.
Matter itself is just the son
Existence is the hyper possibilities
Life has rhe most hyper possibilities
Because it is unlimited and growing beyond infinity
Because each living individual is an entire universe of possibilities
Some of them are too far from the center to even observe them
Even tho they technically exist
Gravity is these two hyperspheres orbiting each other
Binary stars collapsing forever
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Gravity is love
And cache is breaking orbit
All of this takes place within the context of pondering my own existence and choices and choosing to make art and be an artist or being lonely and objective
Does my love for cache have enough gravity for me to chase her and bend that reakity into the nexus point where i exist
Or does katherine flying by, pull me into another orbital path
Does she have enough gravity to pull me put of that universe
Or is it eva and my responsibility to mske her video?
The artist who loves in the moment with no objective perspective and nothing to say
Just a happy particle spinning
Pure chaos
Which orbit
Once years ago i was a child
And i couldnt decide between taking karate or playing soccer
And i was crying so much
That my parents and sister were laughing at me.
To this day they repeat "im so confised"
My sister does the sadistic immitation of it the best and so frequent that i can hear the echoes of her saying it...
"Im soooo confused".
Shit a diffusion model is all the slices of the universe
And the art it draws out of the chaos
Is the intersection point of all realities
Gravity is just the largest hypersphere
The most intersection point of all orbits
In n-dimensional space
All these objects
Actually every single object
From the smallest quark or quantum particle
To the largest mega black hole where time stops
All matter is just the intersection of waves
Thats what mass is
A 3 dimensional diffusion model
Of hyperspheres vibrating in space
Vibrating and orbiting each other
Their orbit trajectories in multiple realities
The intersection point with the most gravity
Is what we observe as the particle
Its hyperdimensional potentiality
Its radiance field the observable distance where waves of gravitation or potential effect where the further away from center-section point particle is where gravity grows weaker
Where particles lose their orbit
Of esch other
Where they stop to influence each others potential positions in reality
The particle or molecule or collection of particles
Is really just the shape a particle takes when combined with orher gravity radiance fields
It becomes their most likely state where orbit schieves infinite equilibriuthey remain in orbit of each other
The hydrogen exists
Water is hydrogen and 2 oxygen
It is the most physically in 3 dimensionally unstable or morphous because the orbital radiance fields are so maleable
Theres too many options on their bumble
The oxygen will just just share orbits and spon off with any ither hydrogen atoms
Ots both stable and unstable
In that individually h20 is stable
The radiance fields have equilibirum
They stay overalpping in constant hyper motion overlapping with eschother in constant orbit
Its also like harmonious
Undisturbed they will exist into infinity
They will not break orbit
But collectively they are so harmonious that they dance with all the other h20 molecules
I guess until they get cold
Under 32 degrees
They become solid in physical reality
They become too densely packed
Their radiance fields make them fit neatly together like a 3 sided hineycomb shape of bubble wrap
Cold temperature condesnses the radiance fileds the orbital trajectories get tighter
They stay in conversation
Just vibrating away
The vibration becomes like a tone
A more even sin wave form
Ice is h20 humming at a very short frequency
The more ice the more volume of gravity
When ice heats up
The volume stays the same
But the frequency of the sound gets lower
Because heating it up makes the radiance fields wider and the frequency longer esve length
Or wait is it like the frequency stays the same. Its still water. The molecule is in harmony still its just more excited at higher temperature.
So gravity is like the radius of the molecule but also the volume or no theres a difference between mass volume and sound or vibration volume
2 different radiuses radii
Losing it becoming unstable fuzzy
The conversation becomes unfocused
The particles wanna socialize with other molecules again
Raising the temperature makes them less stable and more likely to rome around
They get adhd
They become more active
But the gravity stays the same cus the amount of mass and molecules doesnt change. They just become water
And they socialize because they move freely
I just sound so insane right now
This state of thinking is adhd
In constant motion
With overlapping radiance fields of attention
A metal in particular metal that conducts heat
It does so because the structure has symmetry
How foes symmetry result in heat conductivity
Heat and spund both travel by vibrating physical reality they are both tone in sound
Heat is like pitch
Higher pitch not higher volume
Heat and light both travel through physical space because they shake the hyper sphere radiance fields with vibrations
And it doesnt change the gravity fields themselves
The orbits dont change
These are all different types of fields
Its basically field science or radiuses or cicrles or spheres
Copper has symmetry in a way that water doesnt
They both can be liquids thats different
Temperature and physical liquid solid state is different from molecular state
Gas evaporates
The molecules stay together but they lose orbit with each other
Their molecular cohesion is like a sifferent kind of reality than 3 dimensional space
Its just a way to view their molecular bonds or stomic fields
Oh shit its like atomic fields are a super small scale
Literally the atomic scale of radiance fields
Where like grabity is like gigantic scale fields
Gravity is like the total of all in space
And atomic scale is like zoomed all the way in to where atoms are like sooo far apart from each other but their quantum particle fields are overlapping
The way they overlap in byper dimensional soace their hyperspherical shapes is what determines their intersctions
Like do they bond and talk vibrate forever or do they remain in motion because of the field intersctiona nd ehst kind of motion and what shape are their hyperdimensional orbits
Of anyone is curious why i am so lonely
Its because these are the conversations i have with myself
Constantly
Maybe not quite as vivid and overallping of subject matter as this subject is very adhd overlapping hyper dimensional in itself
Im like seeing things from all these theories coming together and making sense
My rem sleep flow state was very intersectional this morning
But its clear
I know this si not crazy cuz it makes sense
I can see it all in my mind
Could explain it sgain
Repeat the exercise or thought experiment
Move to any part of the equationand fill in the explanation
Writing it in english words
Is just me stopping to write on the chalkboard what my mind can see
Clear as day
And just like my gravity field particles
My humans in the expansive hyper reality where the son is living each lifetime,
While the father who has lived it all watches and tells the son that this is your tutorial
Where fuxxy radiance fields become intersectional 3 dimensional reality in quantum hyper dimensional spacetime and the god is the observer
And i am just a lonely man talking to himself necause everyone else did not find this conversation interesting
And inwas left alone with my own thoughts and grief long enough that it started to come together
All these separate conversations that i had with dfiferent people
All these projects i was working on
All these thiught functions and separate equations started to overlap
And in my sleep my brain started putting them together
Right before my birthday
The midway pount of my life
The intersectional moment between moving forward and looking backward in time
With equidistant radiance fields
In my loneliness
Trying to decide
This time not between doing karate and playing soccer where my sister ridiculed me.
I thought about love and what is important
And being honest
And how hard it is for me to be present and in the moment and comfotable enough, safe enough to really talk to another human being
In my grief
In my loss
In my love
My love for bentley
My grief at his loss
In my connection to cache
And my grief at her loss
And my sadness about living in a quite lonely room
The pain and suffering of reality gave me clarity.
Sparked by the moment of honesty between me and katherine
Where i opened up and let myself form a connection with another human being
And i cried as cache drifted away and i grew dark from her light
And in this moment of suffering and self loathing
I found clarity
About myself
And my place in the universe
Why i have been alone.
Why that suffering was necessary
And i stopped hating myself
And became okay
But also i feel so sad
And sorry
And ashamed
But i accept it
And can be honest
In this moment
Its okay
Someone loved me enough to talk to me
For real
And someone will love ne enough to talk to me again
And its okay to be alone
Because my mind is interesting enough to have these thoughts
Even if nobody else is listening
Because even if people dont understand what i am saying
Even if they dont like what i said
Its okay
This stray
Lonely dog
This lonely stray animal
Will calm down enough
And trust that its okay
To have an opinion
And a though that is different
I accept that people wont like me
Or my thoughts
I can be honest
And naked mand uncomfortable
and share my pain
And that is being an artist
Accepting
And saying it anyway
Join the movemint
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